Open Spaces

“Nature holds the energy of constant change. Mother Earth reflects all parts of nature. The Mother holds the collective consciousness of our pain. From the beginning of time, she has absorbed all bloodshed and with the season change, gives us spring flowers.”

Wren Reign

I think nature is fucking magical. I spend time in nature to fill myself, to wander, play, think, and heal broken parts of myself. I am awestruck experiencing the wide-open spaces nature offers.

I live in wonder. What is the meaning of life kind of wonder or how have I made it this far kind of wonder.

I have been efficient in managing my energy over the decades from the confines of a variety of mental and emotional compartments. This was a survival technique when I was a child and unfortunately I have used compartmentalizing too often as an adult.

I have dismantled the compartments that I once perceived necessary in keeping me safe and successful. To a degree, gathering up my attention (in a compartment) has helped me to be focused and efficient in dealing with the complexities of life. Matters of the heart…not so much. The limits of my compartments told me how far I can move from the left, to the right, without offending someone. Has it made me more successful? Definitely not!

Stepping out of containment into wide-open spaces, I see all parts of myself. I have come face to face with grief and disappointment. And love. And flowers.